Hello amazingly amazing children of the universe! This blog is late by a week again, I think I will stop mentioning its late from now on because there is no point in saying its late because it will be uploaded when its uploaded, LOL! Anyway lets get into the past two weeks!
Just want to say this before I get into the week:
I'm trying to not repeatedly talk about this, hopefully this is the last time I do, but I thought I would let you all know I have written some new up to date paragraphs about my ex and what happened, for my autobiography:
The last week of 2021 wasn’t easy for me because on the 24th of December me and my, now ex, boyfriend Gudjencio ended our 2 year relationship. I was always there for him and always worried about him and his health, especially when he would stop talking to me for long periods of time, but I still somehow ended up hurting him, apparently, and I was really sorry for that. I didn't want to hurt him and I didn't mean to, I hate hurting people.
After we broke up we were working things out and working on things and moved on. He apparently understood me and said I need to understand myself, which I didn't need to because I already understand myself, and fix my problems but he barely talked to me after the break up and he obviously didn't understand me because my problem was the fact I was lonely, not that I needed to understand myself, and he wasn't there for me, even though he said he wouldn't leave me, when I needed him. He kept repeating himself because I didn't know what to do because honestly he was confusing me, especially when he said I need to understand myself; He wanted me to change but I couldn't because I already understand myself.
Also from what I saw he was obviously talking to another girl, who I am in communication with, more because they share each others stuff a lot. He also told me not to leave because leaving wouldn't fix the problem yet he stopped talking to me often and later on, in March 2022, he went and left me by blocking me because I started dating someone else and he even went and said I fix my problems by having sex, which is horribly wrong.
As mentioned I was feeling lonely and I had moved on so I decided to date Lloyd, who I have known since secondary school, so my ex decided to block me because I started dating Lloyd, If he actually understood me he wouldn't have blocked me. The fact my ex didn't understand me and he then went and blocked me, hurt me; But I probably deserved getting hurt because I hurt him and honestly remembering what he did still hurts me even though I have moved on from him. I thought we both still loved each other and that he wanted me to be happy and wanted to fix things but I guess not.
So I decided I would make mine and Lloyd's relationship official after my ex blocked me. Also I honestly wanted to forget about my ex and remove him from my life for a few months before he blocked me because it hurt that he didn't understand and stopped talking to me, so now I see it as a good thing that he is removed from my life, also I ended up blocked him on all other social medias as a response and to show I was removing him entirely."
Also I'm not going to lie but this helped me realized I am defiantly a type 6 enneagram, LOL!
Random stuff of the week:
My sister and her friend were drawing mushrooms with rainbows surrounding them basically symbolizing getting high on mushrooms, LOL! So my sister told me to tell her friend that she is high on drugs (she isn't), LOL!
One thing I will never give context to, because it's funny, is the fact that my houses main bathroom was once covered with mangos.
A weird food combination which sounds like it shouldn't go together, I think, is chilli con carne and pasta but I made it and it tasted amazing!
So one of my USBs decided to delete itself and surprisingly I was calm, last time this happened I was really upset, anyway I downloaded disk drill and was able to recover all the files!
Me: That rose isn't real. (Talking about a fake plastic rose I saw)
My brother: Your not real.
Me: I know I'm not.
My brother: Were all holograms.
Me: At least someone knows.
My brother: Wait what.
I don't know why but my wireless mouse wasn't connecting to my computer so I had to use a mouse with a fucking wire! Anyway I saw this mouse and keyboard and definitely had to get it because I loved it! Anyway here are my new wireless mouse and keyboard!
Last Saturday me and my boyfriend watched the movie "Olympus Has Fallen", I loved it! Were probably going to end up watching the next two movies. Apparently the three movies aren't good because they don't have good scores online but I loved the first one but then again I'm a weirdo who loves everything I watch, LOL!
Last week my spine slightly hurt, probably because of the weird positions my boyfriend has put me in, LOL!
Me and my boyfriend attempt to make some heart shaped biscuits with jam, they didn't exactly turn out how we wanted but there amazing!
Me and one of my friends had one of the funniest conversations. She doesn't like goat cheese so I said it's basically like normal cheese because it is and then I basically said it's weird that we drink other animals milk rather than human milk. For some weird reason my friend then asked if chickens produce milk and I said chickens don't milk and my friend said chickens don't do the milking so I said the chicken milks the farmers, LOL! Anyway I then basically said only mammals produce milk and then I said, if mammals produce milk then that means whales produce milk so what about having whale cheese, LOL!
Me and my friends put marshmallows on pocky and are toasting the marshmallows using the gas hob, probably wasn't a good idea but so what, LOL!
You don't need to remind me to stay hydrated because I an pretty sure I have a serious problem with being too hydrated all the time, I drink a fucking lot and always need to go to the toilet, LOL!
Me: We don't have any crackers!
My friend: Your crackers. (Basically saying I'm insane)
I mean there not wrong, LOL!
Yesterdays weather was nice and hot so me, my bf and my friends spent most of the day in the pool eating popcorn! It was an amazing day!
Morty:
LC art/Art of LC:
New picture!
Anime:
I haven't been on Netflix for a while and "Pacific rim: The black" season 2 was finally released and I finished watching all of it! Anyway I also watched "Komi Can't Communicate" and as expected I loved it, I can't wait to watch season 2! Anyway now I'm watching the anime "A Lull in the Sea" which I am also loving and will be finishing tonight!
Research:
In my last blog post I completely forgot to post this:
My reach on my Instagram 64tge8st has been shit recently but I probably shouldn't complain about it because I don't post on it as often as I want to but I'm not going to lie it has been more shit recently than usual. The reason I am bringing this up is because my most recent post didn't do well so I boosted it, LOL!
Also "Light is Consciousness" is migrating to twitter due to this exact problem so I've been thinking about migrating but honestly I don't know.
Unfortunate "Quantum Gravity Research" unfollow me... But it doesn't matter.
"Higher dimensional vortex maths", which I made last november, has been saved in the drafts on my website for months, I somehow forgot to post it but I finally uploaded it yesterday with my most recent diagrams! Anyway I thank you all for reading, I love you all, bye!
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